When most people get good news they celebrate.  I can't get myself to celebrate quite yet although I am feeling more hopeful than I have in the past.  I am envious of those who get to shout it from the rooftops and start planning.  I feel like I have to stay focused on today.  I should admit that I have let my mind wander and think momentarily about maternity swimwear *shudder* and harvesting food from the garden and canning with either a 9 month belly or a newborn and two rambunctious boys.  Then, I quickly snap back to today.  Just today.  I am pregnant today.

I will go tomorrow for a blood draw to see where my levels are and then go for a repeat on Thursday.  In the meantime, I have been using pregnancy tests to monitor how things are progressing.  On Saturday night, part of our date night festivities was buying some tests since we were at WalMart to buy some birthday presents for Gavin anyway!  So when I turned the corner to the pregnancy test, ovulation test, and other girlie things, isle I was in shock and awe when there were no First Response tests.  None.  Not a single box!  Is this some sort of pregnancy test Armageddon?  We left Walmart sans tests so we made a stop at our local grocery store.  I ran in, grabbed two boxes of tests (6 tests in all) and stepped into line.  When I put the boxed on the conveyor belt I couldn't help but watch the eyes of the maybe 19 year old cashier.  She smiled politely and if there was a thought bubble, it would have said, "Who in the world needs to know 6 times if they are pregnant or not?!"  I quickly took the bag from the 19 year old guy who had a similar thought I am sure, and was on my merry way.

So starting Sunday morning, the testing festivities have begun.  I will come back and update this post whenever I have a new test pic to add.  So, for your (my) obsessing and enjoyment, here are my First Response test progression thus far. 

11 DPO

12 DPO

13 DPO

14 DPO -beta hCG 53.8

17 DPO- beta hCG 157

And for those who like to see the cheapies:

17 DPO beta hCG 157

So far so good.  I started the Welcome Womb on 8 DPO just because so many things felt different.  I am taking 3 droppersful 2 times a day.  I have been putting it in a small amount of water and shooting it like whiskey.  Then, without breathing, I drink something else.  It can be water or juice and as long as I don't take a breath between drinks, I only taste the second drink.  This morning I tried it with coffee.  Not recommended since sipping a chaser isn't as effective.  Who knew my days at the bars would pay off when it came to pregnancy.  Please keep the prayers coming!

Now what?  Don't get me wrong, I am excited!  But I feel like I should be doing something.  Yesterday I spent my whole day hunched over pee sticks trying to catch them in the right light.  Today, it is there.  It is there, right?  I know it isn't dark, but it is a start.  I will probably take a test everyday for a while so I can see lines get darker.  Hopefully!

I haven't been in this position in so long I don't know how to react.  I don't have the immediate joy and excitement that first time moms get.  I am hopeful.  I am happy.  I am scared though too. 

Doug reminded me this morning that this baby isn't ours.  This baby belongs to God and that He will do with it as He wills.  I am thankful that today I get to carry this child.  I hope that tomorrow I get to carry it still, and that there are many more tomorrows after that. 

I am so thankful for all of your support and prayers and would appreciate if you would continue.  You know how people say that there is light at the end of the tunnel?   I feel like I have been waiting in a very long line to start  my way through that tunnel in hopes of seeing the light at the end of it.  Your prayers and support will help to light the way. 

It is official. My period started this morning confirming what I has already expected. So, I have decided that instead of curling up into the fetal position with my Pamprin and my Tampax, I am going to do something I have never done before. My friends! It is time for a giveaway!!

I have a 3 pack of First Response Early Result that also has a First Response Fertility Test. So, there are 4 things that can all be peed on! All yours! FREE!!!

In order to enter you need to:

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2. Fill out the form below.

Winner will be selected at random using random.org. Entries will be accepted until 12:00 noon EST on Wednesday, June 8th. The winner will be notified via e-mail and will have one week to respond. After 7 days, a new winner will be selected.

Good luck and baby dust!!

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