You know what isn't fun about pregnancy after infertility and recurrent miscarriages?  The whole first trimester

My last appointment was two weeks ago.  When I scheduled today's appointment I thought, "Eh.  I can wait two weeks.  It isn't that long."  I kept that attitude until Monday night.  All of the sudden it hit me how long it had been since I had the opportunity to verify that things were still okay in there.

Monday night I was up watching some TV and when I looked at the clock and saw it was already 10:00 and my eyes were still open without toothpicks, I worried a little but decided to just go to bed.  Then as I layed in bed with the TV on, I became engrossed in the TV show on and ended up being awake until nearly 11:00pm.  Not the biggest deal in the world but to me, it led to more worry.

Then, Tuesday came.  Tuesday, about an hour before lunch, I was so hungry.  Again, shouldn't be an issue except for the fact that I really haven't been hungry in weeks now.  I usually muster up enough courage to eat something but it is only after thinking about 17 things that make my stomach turn.  Yesterday, I was so hungry and everything sounded good.  I panicked a little.  I even got out my doppler to try to listen for a heartbeat.  I know that a just over 9 weeks, the chances were pretty slim, but I was anxious for something!  I never heard a heartbeat but the digital readout kept showing me a number in the 125-130 range so it couldn't have been me.  I decided that it was enough to get me through until today. 

Before the scan, I had the unique and under discussed awkward pap and breast exam from a former classmate.  The thought had occurred to me that I would have to have her do that, but I wasn't really ready for it today.  I am not sure how one emotionally prepares for a girl I refer to by her first name to palpate my boob and give my nipple a squeeze.  She didn't seem weirded out but I am sure that there is some sort of doctor etiquette that requires them to not talk about how awkward they feel about feeling up an old friend. 

Then finally, the scan. 


All is well in the town of Uterus.  Baby was looking good and healthy!  I even saw it do a little wiggle on the screen!   Such a relief!  Now to figure out if I am done with the nausea or if I just had a 24 hour respite.  I also have to figure out how I am going to make it until 12 weeks before another scan! 

I can't begin to tell you how much all of your comments, love, prayers, and well wishes mean to me.  I am really so blessed to have you all as supporters in my life and my family's lives.  Thanks, from the bottom of my heart!